Unfortunately, due to personal issues I am unable to continue this project. I am very sorry to disappoint everyone who has commented, participated in, and contributed to this site in various way, however I can’t continue.
Thank you once again for your support and encouragement, it has meant a lot to me.
Some people have no interest in BDSM. They don’t need to explore giving away control. They don’t want the challenge of physical pain. They don’t like the feel of rope on their skin.
But then some people do.
All of it, or just some. There’s no right or wrong. Just consent and exploration. Sara wanted to be tied up and then have me tease her with toys. This is her experience…
It has come to my attention that the size of this film (800+ megabytes) is too large for some people to download. I have therefore created a smaller version (regular high definition rather than full HD and a lower bit rate). The file is only 200 megabytes, so should be much more manageable without too much loss of quality.
So, if you have trouble streaming/viewing the version above, please try this one instead:
MJohn
Reminder to everyone out there, that a kink can be something that you like to think about, like to fantasise about but never want to do it in real life. That’s still valid. It’s okay to have really scary and wild fantasies [or just mild ones] and have them be totally separate from reality.
Lady Delphine via Twitter – https://bit.ly/2ZMHtNn
I love helping people to explore their fantasies in the real world. But it needs to be said – it’s perfectly valid to have fantasies, even ones that society won’t approve of and to never act on them*.
When you visit a site like mine you may feel that there is some pressure or imperative to participate for your kink, your sexuality, your pleasure to be “whole”. That is not true. It is fine to have a rich fantasy life that stays entirely in your head and is never shared with anyone.
How you express your kink/s is entirely up to you. Some of my clients have taken literally years to reach a point where they are ready to physically explore their fantasies with me, building trust over time until they feel safe enough to tell me what they are thinking. Some love the idea of exploring so much that they dive into a session on camera right off the bat. Some will never do any of those things.
If that is you – and you just like coming here to see my films and photos – then that’s ok too. You don’t need to please anyone but yourself.
* Note: if you have fantasies outside the realms of what consenting adults can do together and you worry that it is effecting your life, your safety, or others, then find a therapist who understands kink and get help with it. I’m not here to kink-shame anyone, but we cannot let our kinks hurt ourselves, or other people who are not willing, consenting adults.
MJohn.
Sara contacted me after seeing one of my films and asked if we could do a session where I tied her and teased her with toys.
Sara had never experienced being tied before, so we spent some time talking about what kind of tie she would like. I think that many people expect Shibari and bondage in general is always going to be a full body tie and complete immobilisation, but in reality it can be absolutely anything that you want it to be.
So I spent some time talking with Sara about what she would like to experience including what kind of tie appealed to her.
The criteria we decided on were:
I did some research on styles of chest harness that might suit the session and allow for her to be safely laid down for the second part of the session – the tease.
In the end I didn’t find any harness design that immobilised Sara’s arms without either hiding her breasts, requiring her arms to be behind her back, or to be suspended. So when we started the practice tie I devised something on the spot, starting around her waist, then binding her wrists and finally moving up to do the chest portion.
It took a couple of practice ties to get right, but we were both happy with the outcome when it was done.
Some people enjoy the sensation of being tied just on its own. But others like to combine being tied with erotic play and sex. Sara wanted to try some play with toys once she was tied. I will be posting another video of that soon…
I hope you enjoy this film and thank you to Sara for filming with me!
MJohn.
Many people would like to try some BDSM, but most don’t how you might go about arranging a session with me (even in a post Fifty Shades world). I recently had a session with a woman who I have known for some time. She has been exploring her sexuality and wanted to go further, having discovered the delights of rope, hot wax, and self denial.
Below I have reproduced the email that she sent me when her ideas came together after some light rope play. If you are wondering where you would start exploring BDSM, then this is it – in your fantasies. Think of your scenario, your scene. What would you like to try, how would want to submit?
Firstly, thank you for making me feel comfortable enough to ask you for what I want. And thank god for email because I don’t know if I could say this out loud.
Obviously I want you to do these things for me only if you are enthusiastically happy to. I don’t want to presume that everything/anything is ok with you.
I want to feel dominated by you.
As soon as I get in the door. Push me up against the wall and use your body to keep me there. Hold me by my hair. Or my wrists. Bite me on the neck. Or wherever. Kiss me long and slow. Until I’m drowning. Don’t let me move.
Take me to the bedroom when you’re ready but make me wait.
Light some candles….
Slow me down. Really slow. Make it torturous. Kiss me some more. Or not.
I might ask you to, but let’s not have sex yet.
Tie me up with rope first. Please. However you like. Don’t ask me, just do it how you’d like. Arms, legs, both – I don’t care.
I will be dying to have sex with you by then, but there’s one more thing.
I want to watch you pick up one of the candles and drip the hot wax onto my body. Wherever you like. As much as you like.
And then, when I can’t take anymore of that, let’s have sex.
Unless there’s anything else you think I need first.
Gosh, I’m all hot and bothered now ;)”
Even if you never go beyond the fantasy in your mind, it will give you pleasure. But the day that you are ready to step out of your comfort zone and try these things in real life, you will have a clear story that you can pursue. It will make it easier for both you and you master or mistress as everyone will know what to expect and how the story is meant to play out.
The session described above did happen, including improvisations that I added that I felt matched the mood at the time and the overall scene. And the result was a beautiful afternoon of power play, domination, and complete submission.
And here were her thoughts after the session…
Thank you so much.
You set the mood perfectly and outdid yourself with your interpretation of my wish list.
Especially when you had me by the hair with one hand and by the throat with the other. I was actually a bit scared then. And when I was on my hands and knees in the rope and felt the scissors on my skin. Oh and I LOVED it when you brushed my hair. I felt vulnerable and beautiful but somehow protected at the same time. Mmmm – shivers thinking about it.
I am absolutely up for more of that.
Plus I felt a bit naughty – being out in public with you was an interesting feeling, as was being sans knickers!
I definitely love being fucked by you.
I feel free and open and relaxed.
I feel like I don’t need to worry about, or moderate, or edit my behaviour with you. I’m fine as I am.And it was so lovely to have you just be comfortable with my tears.”
It is impossible to know exactly how a session is going to go and things will develop on their own as the scene progresses, but starting with a plan means that no-one gets carried away and everyone knows (broadly) what to expect next.
The messages that I have quoted above are not the entire story, they are the culmination of previous sessions and discussions, but the first one does at least show you the core of defining and describing your scene.
The most obvious thing missing here was arranging a safe word (very, very important) which we also did prior to the session.
So, if you have ever wondered what it would be like to give up control and experience your fantasies in a safe, consensual way, then write them down and contact me.
MJohn.
A relaxed session, who’s purpose was to give k. a sensual experience and create beautiful images.
Submission bondage using red silk rope, intended to make m. physically vulnerable and challenge her desire for control.
